So, my question today is how do I make time for everything that I have to do? There is so much that I need to do everyday, how can I possibly get it all done? There's work-two jobs actually, homework, class, scripture study, calling work, family, friends, exercise, cleaning, personal hygiene, journal writing, missionary work-there just isn't a way for me to do it all. Right now I feel like a poorly painted watercolor version of my normally rich and vibrant self.
I keep hoping things will change, but they haven't yet. And I don't mean I've just been sitting around saying "I wish..." or "Someday..." but I've actually been actively trying to change my life. I've trimmed almost all of the fat off my budget and my schedule. I just don't understand what I'm supposed to learn from exhausting myself. Sometimes I wonder if I made a wrong decision somewhere; but every decision I made I prayed and pondered over. So I know I have to be in the right place. I just feel so stretched and overwhelmed, like "butter over too much bread," as Bilbo Baggins once said.
But maybe it's like Elder Bednar taught: each day, each good thing we do, like scripture study or fhe, is a brushstroke on a canvas of our lives. And up close, those brushstrokes don't look like very much; but when you step back and look at the big picture, you see the amazing painting you've created. So each thing that I do, every day-every homework assignment, scripture study, prayer, workout, hour at work or class-each of these things is a brushstroke on the canvas of my life. And one day, when my life has progressed beyond this world, I will be able to look back and see the masterpiece I created.
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